I've come to the point where I'm going nuts because I'm not currently in school...
I have an amazing job that I enjoy, I like the people I work with, I (mostly) enjoy what I'm doing here, and I'm getting full time 40 hours a week with (in about 2 weeks) full medical and dental benefits. I make more than my current expenses so at the end of the month I can still have some extra in the bank. All seems good...but I'm sitting on a decision that I am forced to make. Do I give it all up, move to a shithole somewhere, and live off of PB&J for the next 3 years just to see if I can live off of student loans and finish school? Or, do I continue with this existance and possibly never go back to school... I mean, I live now in this life with the ambition and drive to go back and finish a degree. The problem is, I first have to get to a point financially where I can live this way and go to school.
Basically, if I choose to go to school I will be forced to leave my job. I work 45mins away from where I live, but I live 5 mins from school. So it takes me an extra 1hr30mins drive time Monday - Friday plus my 9am - 6pm schedule at work. That's 10 1/2 hours gone from my day. Even if I went to 1 - 2 classes of night school there isn't enough hours in the day to go to work, go to class, study, eat, and get adequate sleep so I wont feel fatigued and end up doing shitty in either work or school.
The other issue is that if I do choose to go back to work, I'm not entirely sure I want to go back to Digital Media. I like art, I enjoy doing it, the problem is the lack of opportunities AFTER the degree. Also the limitations, you see...the professional world is full of tedious tasks and things that you need to "fix" because the first person didn't do it correctly. Leading to nothing but grudgingly boring work. Artistic Freedom is seldom given during a digital art career...and if non-digital artists see you as a digital artist they automatically think you can do anything and everything with graphics on computer. As such, they expect you to do anything they could ever dream up. It sucks. It's like "Oh, he can do digital graphics, here...make this technical spec sheet into a template. The thing they dont realize is the program I use is not an exact technical graphics program...like...say CAD. So I cannot physically get the dimensions EXACT...which, for a template, it obviously needs to be. The limitations of the programs I have to use will not allow me to complete the task...however, they dont want to hear that, they just want to see results. This is one of the reasons it sucks...also if they do actually listen to you, they say "well you should be using the same program they designed this in" which, i inform them I don't have and have never used, so they say "well we need to get you that so you can do these for us." Apparantly the part of "I have never used" was unheard...it can take weeks...sometime months to fully understand a new program that you've never used before. =
So now, I'm faced with a decision. Do I stay at this job? Stay with this life? Possibly move forward with natural business progression and turn this into a career? Or do I throw it all away and go to living paycheck to paycheck, wondering if financial aid is going to come in on time...wondering if my Student Loans will cover my expenses this semester...just to simply..."Graduate"
...I hate losing sleep...